kaoZ...capsizing was never in my mind during competitions before...but..unfortunately..oh yeah its the first time taking k4 for competition..we capped ..haiZ!..we were so close to the finishing line..its like 100m away..but..haiZ! think we tried too hard to catch up with the first...cos first go straight finals mah..wah kaoZ..at such a great expense...we were second la..got only three boats though..the last boat was damn far away la..kaoZ..really damn upset la..should have just finished the race slowly sia..wad to do! it really takes 4 to row a boat...
enough of sad stuff le..but i got something to say! i think i lost esther...as in the confident esther last time in sec 3 & 4..last time i damn confident abt competitions..but look at me now sia! wad happened??? kaoZ..it's really a mind game sia..i cannot take it any longer..my performance is like a decreasing graph..i really dun wan dis to happen!! wad to do sia..every competition i go..its like everytime moral-decreasing like that..soon i gonna break down!! kaoZ..will old esther pls come back..i wanna have a strong mentality!!
i kept losing things for the past week! really became absent-minded..sometimes i dun even noe how i lose them! oh no..i better not have a bf any sooner..if not i will lose him too! kaoZ..no link..haha..but really leh..i really keep losing things..dis week is really a saddening week..
i look forward to a new week ahead!...
Don't walk away from me...
-esther-
